Six Days...

Monday, October 3, 2005

I will bless the LORD at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make its boast in the LORD; the humble shall hear of it and be glad. Oh, magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt His name together.

~Psalm 34:1-3~

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I am six days away from being a wife.

I have six days left as a single woman.

I have six days to convince myself that all of this is actually real, that I am not just dreaming.

I have five days to finish all the last minute details I didn't know would come up until (of course) the last minute.

I have four days to put the Litigation offices in order so Jim and Darren can survive my honeymoon absence.

I have one day until I pick up my wedding rings.

I have only a couple hours until I have to send out my last wedding scheduling email.

I hate deadlines. Especially deadlines after which nothing will ever be the same after the deadlines are met. Deadlines like presidential elections, dying people, electing a new pastor to a church, and weddings always send my mind into a fuzz of activity, and my poor heart doesn’t know what to do with the concepts for a very long time afterward.

As I’m heading toward my own deadlines, though, God decided this morning to remind me of what is certain. While marriage is “forever” in many senses, ultimately, it is God Himself who will be my security and my stay. Perhaps the reality of what I’m doing now won’t sink in for five or ten years—but I already know the reality of Him and I know He will never change.

The comfort in finding Him the same “yesterday, today, and forever” is indescribable. There are so many unknowns in the future. What if I get pregnant? What if we move to the other side of the country? What if something happens to Pete?

At my wedding, I don’t know how not-scared I’ll be of the future ahead of me, but I know that more than anything, I want to invite everyone to magnify the Lord with me and let us exalt His name together—not just by the words of our lips, but by our actions and the way that we interact with one another as we *live* for Him on that day. He’s coming to my wedding! He’s not ashamed to call Himself my God, or to give me the desires of my heart! I hope that He is honored by those of us who bear His Name. How can I make Him look bigger?

The verse above talks about blessing the Lord “at all times.” That means He must be worthy of blessing at all times, even the times when my world is turning upside down and changing. He is continually worthy of my praise, and my soul knows that the proudest it can ever be is of my God—no matter what is happening!

Right now, while I have to take it a day at a time, I can praise Him for his unchangeableness, and for the way He’s filled me with Himself. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but He’s the one who holds a thousand tomorrows. I know I can trust Him.

2 comments:

Thy sis said...

She's counting ALREADY???!!!

Anonymous said...

grin.
Tiskren

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