Thursday, April 30, 2009
This photo just makes me happy. It's from one of my favorite memories - touring with a chorale over spring break during my freshman year of college. We sang this incredibly difficult, wonderful happy song based on a Psalm over and over and over, and I never got sick of it. I ordered a copy of it for myself so I could learn to play it, and it still makes me smile and relax just to hear it, remembering the passion it touched in me.
I know I'm dwelling on a lot of memories right now - please forgive me. I'm rather sick, and mostly sacked out on the couch with not a lot to do but muse on the past. Today, I had a crying session and a talk with God about what I missed at college because of my health, and Pip and I took a nap together. Well, she slept. I watched Anne of Avonlea.
I get nauseated when I'm upright; it's easier to rest. BUT, I did get a shower today. I got dressed, got my hair done, and got our bed made. Small accomplishments, but accomplishments nonetheless. Another day done. This week is dragging.
I feel as though I'm learning to lay my dreams down and trust God with what He has for my life. It's a different sort of feeling. Not a struggle so much as a deep sense that what He has for my life is best for me. I'm finding that quiet acceptance doesn't always look like defeat.