Sometimes I wonder...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


...if it really does any good to pray.

And on days like today, I stumble into the reality that God listens. And answers.

You who are praying for me, I am in awe. I am almost hesitant to accept the strength, the encouragement, the rays of sunlight, the uplifted mood as everything shifts from clouds to color and brightness.

The waiting isn't hard today. My heart isn't so heavy as my stomach feels, hanging off my front, bigger than ever. His good is falling down around me, and I'm heart-staring in unwarranted surprise.

I have no explanation beyond your prayers.

It's humbling for me to ask you to continue. But who can knock this? Especially realizing that He is listening to you. Answering your prayers. Caring for me. Showing His care for you in His provision for me.

I think I don't need to be so hesitant to offer to pray as I have been.

Thank you for praying for me. For your involvement in teaching this heart more about His heart.

Ya'll (lol - my ode to having moved South!!! - did I just SAY THAT???) are incredible.

"Praise the LORD! Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever."
(Ps. 106:1)





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7 comments:

Undeserving said...

Oddly enough, I needed to hear that from you today. :-) My heart has been so heavy knowing , really ::knowing:: what you're walking through... and not being far enough removed from my own bad dream of sorts to simply just pray. I feel like I'm going through the pains all over again, except this time with a mental clarity to cry out to the Lord in a different way.

I got so caught up trying to remind you of His faithfulness that I lost sight of the fact I needed to hear it too. :-)

And I'm so happy to witness His grace, once again, at a time I wondered if He was really paying attention. Not to me, but to someone else who was hurting. Silly me, I'm such a Job.

::Hugs::

Jennifer @ JenniferDukesLee.com said...

And you, Kelly ... you are a ray of sunlight.

I feel like I'm standing under that big tree with you there, with our arms wrapped around each others' waists like sisters do, and we're looking up. Let's keep looking up.

He hears us. He really does.

Heidi said...

Yay! Sometimes I wonder about prayer too, but hearing something like this makes my heart happy...and I'll keep praying that Father gives you peace, joy, rest, strength, and endurance.

Birth is such an amazing microcosm of life...painful, stressful, frustrating, bloody, and yet shot through with beauty and hope.

Carrie said...

Kelly, after this one day of having contractions on & off & crampiness ALL day & night, I have a totally new respect & empathy for what you've been going through - when I was pregnant with Z, I didn't have a single contraction until I was in hard labor, so I expected this time to be the same, and ick. These fake contractions are so frustrating!!! I don't know HOW you've dealt with it & taken care of your house & Piper & all, for all of these days. I am praying for you & thinking of you a lot! Hope we both go soon!!! :)

S. Etole said...

He bends His ear to hear us so precious are our prayers. I'm glad you are feeling the effects of them.

Anonymous said...

i love (the word love is kinda singing) this photo!

and...
i guess those y'alls and answers to prayer can both sneak up on a person.

love to you

Anonymous said...

i just read yesterdays post.

no matter how your everyday goes, good or bad, happy or sad, that is what i want to hear.

i am ready to ride the roller coaster with you...or the ferris wheel for that matter.

but not those twirly things like tea cups that go round and round so fast that my neck hurts and i want to puke.
well..ok, i will ride that with you too.

love.

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